Dangerously civil,
We both have come to be,
A touch of life’s relentless charm
Gave birth to apathy
The stillness of the night,
Reflects our frozen heat,
Our honeymoon was summertime,
Our marriage, fallen sleet
Now in the loom of failure,
I cried to God, “Oh please …”
“Don’t let me down, don’t let me fail,”
The ground beneath my knees
And in his mind, he sleeps alone
With me still in the bed,
I’m holding in a weary moan,
Affection in my head
But does he see my misery?
Within my deep blue eyes?
I thought we knew as much to where
We’d hear each other’s cries
But apathy has taken hold
Of sanctity, it’s plain,
It’s ringed the neck of holy love,
The baneful takes the reign
This stoic bond, it has no end,
But God says to “Try harder,”
“You wish that you could just trade lives,”
“But marriage isn’t barter”
“I know, I know” I say to Him,
“But who’s this you’ve provided?”
“He does not love me anymore,”
“This household is divided”
A regal voice had filled the room,
I wonder if he heard,
That God just spoke to both of us,
I quickly grabbed The Word
Midnight passed, my eyes on God,
I felt His eyes on me,
O, the ways He shows Himself,
Aesthetic deity
How dare I lose my sight of Him?
I’m all hypocrisy,
I need to practice what I preach,
And not passivity
“Oh Lord, I ask you, please forgive,
I cannot comprehend,
How long you’ve dealt with someone who’s
Affectionately thin,”
I saw his eyes blink open,
He saw me out of bed,
He saw the blue within my eyes,
The woman that he wed
Suddenly, I felt a kiss,
From God it had to be,
My husband’s lips would never miss
That devil apathy
